A White Christmas ❄️

We have had the most amazing weekend….. it’s finally snowed in December! This never happens we have not had proper snow in so many years. It was especially special because Ava has never seen snow before.

I wish I would of filmed her first reaction when I took her to the window and first showed her the snow, she was amazed! It was incredible watching how excited she got, nothing makes December more special than having snow ⛄️

n't think she would like it, she's very picky and doesn't like to be messy or wet like if she drops even a drop of water on herself she makes me change her she hates it! I thought once she went outside and realised how wet and cold it is she would hate it! To my surprise she absolutely loved it and helped me and friends make snowmen, we played outside for ages. It's been amazing ❄️

It’s been extra special also because Anthony actually managed to have a day off work due to them closing because of the snow. We rarely get days off together as it is let alone in December. We went on a snowy walk around our estate and we built a snowman with my dad, it was so much fun being able to do something festive together as a family and we created some amazing memories for Ava to look back at ❤️

As winter is my all time favourite season anyway and with how much I am already obsessed with Christmas this snow was such an added bonus! However I am hoping it’s melts slightly as I have lots of places to go and people to see before December ends and driving in snow with Ava gives me lots of anxiety! 🎅🏼

When we first bought this house I had a vision of cuddling on the sofa and watching the snow through our French doors, I can’t believe it has actually snowed it’s been amazing 🎅🏼 I’m just even more excited for the rest of December 🎄

This December is one we will remember forever- the December Ava first saw snow ❄️


Christmas at no. 27 🎄

ITS OFFICIALLY DECEMBER!!!!!! I cannot even explain how excited I am that it’s December and Christmas is nearly here. This is my absolute favourite time of year I hate summer time I love nothing more than being cosy at home and of course decorating my house.

As this is our first Christmas in our new home I wanted to put a lot of effort into making the house up into a rustic winter grotto. I have tried to stop myself from going to crazy, I know every year I will buy new things to add to my collection!

It’s tradition for me to decorate on the 1st December. I want the whole of December to enjoy my decorations and of course for Ava to enjoy them 🎄

First is the kitchen and the walk way …. I have just added little bits around the room to make it feel festive

The kitchen is still a working progress- for now it’s just little things like Christmas candles and small decorations for the table to make it feel festive!

I have also covered all of my bannisters with garlands which I am so in love with

I think for next year I will also add baubles for that extra touch but for this year I think it looks extremely festive 🎅🏼

For Ava’s bedroom I have again added some little details but tried not to go too crazy 🎄 (anybody who knows me will know how crazy I do actually get when it comes to festive decorations)

Then for our bedroom I have bought some Christmas bedding and a new Christmassy pillow, I wanted our bedding to be a kind of rustic cabin feel – I’m so happy with the one I picked! It took me so long to pick one because Anthony doesn’t really like tartan so I thought this wouldn’t be too much for him to handle (I’m so lucky he puts up with all my house decor ideas) 🎄

And then for me the best room in the house…. the living room. To my surprise this year Anthony actually went out and bought some new decorations for our side board which I love, it definitely adds a bit more of a Christmas feel ☃️

And then last but not least… the Christmas tree. I literally cannot describe how much I adore my tree. As I’ve wrote numerous times throughout my blogs I am obsessed with anything rustic, woodland and farmhouse style for my home and I feel like my tree represents all of those things.

This Mama Deer just cannot wait to do so many festive activities this month and share it with family and friends 🎄🎅🏼🦌🐻❄️❤️

2.5 year old routine 🐻

I thought I would blog about my day to day routine with my toddler, it changes now and again depending on what we are doing but all in all I try to stick to it as much as possible

I have always tried to get Ava into a routine, it started when she was around 5 months and she started to sleep through the night so I had a set bath and bed time and I’ve kind of just carried it on from there. It’s obviously changed as she has gotten older… here is where we are at today with my 2 year old deer 🦌

a usually wakes up about 7am- since we have moved house she has been a bit hit and miss with her waking up time but it's usually around 7am. Because we have 3 floors now I still use her baby monitors so I can hear when she wakes up, I'm not sure if I should stop using these now as she isn't a baby anymore but I get such bad anxiety at night that I'm not going to hear her wake up and I am going to sleep in so I keep it next to my bed, and she is still in her cot so she cannot come up and get me yet. I usually go into her room, sometimes I will lie in her cot with her and pray she might lie next to me and snooze (of course this never EVER happens) then we go downstairs, I'll change her nappy and make breakfast.

en we will snuggle, watch some tv and play with her toys. Of course if I have work then I'll get ready and go to work but on my days off we have snuggle time in the mornings.

ike to give her lunch around 12pm, if we are having a day at home I'll probably make this between 12-1 but if we have plans in the afternoon I'll make it around 11:30-12pm so she's fed and ready to go. Obviously sometimes if we are already out and about I'll get her something whilst we are out.

en once she is fed we can get on with our day, I always make sure she has some kind of drink when we go out and when we are at home. She does drink water primarily but I find she will drink a full cup if I give her some juice so I mix between the two because ultimately I want her to stay hydrated but not always have juice I limit it to 1-2 cups a day.

ound 4:30 I start dinner, for lunch we usually have something easy like a sandwich or some pasta so for dinner I like to always make sure we have a proper meal before bedtime. She's at the stage now where if she doesn't want to eat she just won't eat. It drives me insane!!! Like how Can I let her go to bed when I know all she's really eaten is a apple but I can't physically force her to eat! The joy of terrible twos! I always give her a yoghurt for pudding as she doesn't drink milk so I like to give her something with calcium as I am always paranoid she doesn't get enough goodness from her food… then I have to remind myself I breast fed her for a year that's got to have given her so much goodness! Being a mom I don't think you ever stop second guessing yourself!

en night time comes and I always bath her at 6:30. I have a strict bath time routine where I have to make sure she brushes her teeth, she also sits in her potty (doesn't do anything yet) and I'll make sure she's all clean! I'll then moisturise her, i HAVE to moisturise her I've done it since the day she was born and she has sensitive skin which doesn't help! I can't sleep properly if she's gone to bed without a bath and without being moisturised, I just love to get her all clean and cosy in fresh pyjamas every night ❤️

At 7pm it’s bedtime for her and then it’s finally my mommy time to lie on the sofa with a blanket and not move….. until 10pm hits and I drag myself to bed to try and get enough sleep to do it all over again tomorrow!

It’s difficult sticking to a routine as she gets older, for example on Thursdays she goes to nursery so she has her tea before I pick her up and then we go home and straight to her bath and bed time! Or as me and my close friends see each other once a week sometimes it will fall on a week when Anthony is at work so I have to bring her with me so she’s up later. And of course when she decides she won’t sleep so she lies on the sofa with me…. despite all this I am so happy I have a routine for her I think it’s so important when she’s so young. When I have another baby ill try and stick to this same routine for 2 as for me this works!

Love from this mama bear 🐻💜


We have had the best October celebrating Halloween this year, as I have mentioned in previous blogs I am obsessed with Halloween, I love decorating for it around my house and doing special Halloween inspired activities with Ava, it’s definitely more fun when you have a child! 

This October I have tried to do lots of different things with Ava, I bought her the peppa pig Halloween book to read Halloween stories (I like themed festive things if you couldn’t tell)  we have watched fun children Halloween programmes as well. We carved a bear on a pumpkin to go in her room which she loved, she kept pointing at it and going ‘woooo’ she’s getting such a funny personality 

Me and my best friends took our children to a pumpkin patch which was ammmmmmmazing! I am obsessed with getting pictures of her doing festive activities to keep forever. And it makes me happy we have something like that to celebrate Halloween because we don’t have as much festive activities to go to like America does, I still wish I lived in America when it comes to the autumn/winter months 🎄🎃🍁🍂

Me and a few of my best friends also took her to wonderland in the evening which was a Halloween spooky event- it was brilliant I loved taking her out to celebrate it as she’s too young at the moment to go trick or treating- we of course ended our October by watching hocus pocus ☠️ 

I also went to the theatre this month as my brother was in a play called Oklahoma and I honestly could not of been more proud of him. He played one of the lead roles Curley McLain and he was amazing so that was another reason why I have had such a fun October 🎭


October makes me so happy anybody who knows me will know I would fill my whole house with pumpkins all year round if I could! But I am excited to get prepared to decorate for our first Christmas in our new home.  As much as I am obsessed with Halloween decor, Christmas is on another level for me. Every year I want my home to be a cosy grotto so Ava will always remember how much we celebrated Christmas time 🎄🎄🎄 

I am so happy I have Ava to do all these fun things with for the seasonal stuff like Christmas and Halloween it makes me so happy 

Happy Halloween Guys 🎃🎃🎃

Mama Bear 🐻☠️🌲🎃🍁🍂

My 2 year olds favourite toys 

Ava has had a lottttttttt of toys over the past 2 years as you can imagine! Some she plays with for 5 minutes and then forgets about it and some she constantly likes to keep playing with, I think the first few years are difficult when it comes to buying toys and gifts it’s so hard to buy something that you think they will actually get use out of 🌲

She’s never really had a consistent favourite toy or comforter (until recently) shes never been attached to anything until she started nursery a few months ago now it’s her first baby I bought for her. She now won’t go to bed unless the baby is in her cot and if she goes to nursery I have to make sure she takes baby with her. I think she was about 15 months when I first bought her a baby doll and ever since then she has been obsessed, I think she now owns probably around 10 different babies and has all the accessories you can imagine! She loves pretending to feed them, change them and put them to sleep. I’m not sure if it’s a girl thing but she’s the most nurturing toddler ever! It’s extremely rare that we leave the house without a baby in hand! She will definitely be an amazing big sister when she eventually gets a brother or sister, makes me really excited for that to happen 🐻🐻 so babies is definitely the number one toy she loves 

Her second favourite thing to play with at the moment is play doe! She is absolutely obsessed with it, every morning she will run to the cupboard it’s kept in and shout ‘doe’ until I say yes to get it out. She likes to tell us what colour to roll out and pick the correct colour cutter to place the shape on the right one. It’s actually really helped her to learn the colours and shapes even though she’s not there with her speech she knows what colour matches what tub I am really happy she’s learnt that from it. I won’t lie when she wants to play with it for the 10th time in one day it becomes less fun but of course I would much rather her play with play doe that sit on a iPad and watch the tv all day.

Having said that… I do let her sit on the iPad sometimes during the day, we like to have a snuggle on the sofa, she will watch random videos on YouTube about play doe and I will watch the tv, I would never let her do it all day every day but now and again I don’t mind as it means she cuddles me a little. She also plays games on there or watches Ben and holly…. it particularly comes in handy if I need to shower and get ready it distracts her so she’s not running up and down our house whilst I’m trying to get ready. I don’t think there is any harm in letting her play the iPad as long as you do it in moderation. 

She also loves books, she will always grab a book and ask me to read it to her which makes me so happy as for me it’s really important that she always wants to read books with us. I have bought her all the Disney books, she has books filled with bedtime stories, Christmas stories, Halloween stories. I love nothing more than reading with her,  As she gets older I want to make it a routine she always has a bedtime story. 

She has so many toys but at her age she doesn’t concentrate on one thing for very long. She likes to draw and colour in so she has plenty of crayons and colouring books, she also sometimes likes to play with her baby toys! 

It’s difficult as we are coming up to Christmas so I’m trying to decide what to get her for Christmas, this is the last year I think I will get away with not getting her much because she still doesn’t understand about Christmas so she can’t tell me what she wants ‘santa’ to bring her. I think I might get her a toy cash register and all the food to go with it. I think one family member will buy her a mini kitchen as she loves helping us cook! And maybe a walking dog toy because she loves walking my nans dog. She definitely doesn’t need much especially after her last birthday! 

So that’s my blog on popular toys for a 2 year old little girl. 

Much love mama bears 🐻🌲🌿🦌🍁

The struggle of being a working mommy 🍄

The struggle of trying to be the best mom I can be for my toddler but also trying to build a career for myself is extremely difficult. Today for some reason I feel like it has gotten on top of me, every minute I’m not with Ava I feel so guilty But in my head I want to build a career for myself and for her to see me succeed as well as be a mother to her, I want her to grow up watching both her parents work hard so she follows that within her life, it’s trying to find a balance I am finding difficult.

We have just moved into our new house so the past week or so has been a bit crazy, Ava’s done amazing settling into her new bedroom although she has been waking up a lot earlier so I think I’m more tired than usual, and I have just started my new role at work which is now a 9-5:3 job rather than my 7-3:30… the positive of this is I still get to wake up with her and see her before I go, however the negative is by the time I get home she’s ready to get bathed and put to bed which makes me sad but also makes me appreciate her even more. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy my job when I’m there I love being focused and feel like I’m a important member of the team, and when I’m at home I’m mommy/house wife which I also love!

I know I’m extremely lucky I get to only work part time and have the rest of my time with her but it’s just a struggle trying to do well at my job and then come home and do my best at being her mommy, I’m very aware she’s still only 2 years old she’s still so young I don’t want to feel like I’m leaving her too much, I can only hope every working mommy feels the same way I do! I’d give anything to rewind and go back to her being a baby that slept on me all day 🐻 

My focus will always be building the best future for my baby and my family, I cannot wait to add another little baby bear to our family, I know Ava will make the most amazing big sister. That’s even more why I’m pushing myself to build a career path, I want to know I can build a beautiful family and have a career to continue after. As I am still young I think I’m headed in the definite right direction. I think I need to remember there will always be days where I feel like the juggling act gets too much, then I’ll wake up the next day and go back to normal. Of course I would never for a second change any of it. I think it’s a positive thing to blog about the not so good days so I will be able to read my blog back myself and see how the good days and good memories I am building will always weigh out the bad days. 

This working mama bear will juggle whatever i need to, to make sure my children have the best upbringing with 2 parents that do whatever they need to, I can only hope they will have a strong work ethic like we do 🌿 🌲🍁🌻🌷

Life update 👨‍👩‍👧

Feels like I haven’t blogged in forever, the last few weeks have been a little crazy. The weeks fly by way too fast these days!

Nursery is going well, Ava seems to really be settling in well which makes my heart so happy. She now waves me goodbye rather than looking like she’s going to break down when I leave her. This makes me feel so much better when I leave her, as much as I don’t think I’ll ever like leaving her I know she’s enjoying herself and learning so many new things each time she goes. She’s about to go from a morning session to a full day a week because I am now doing a extra day at work, I feel really happy about this new transition I am really proud of her she is growing up so much 🐻


iggest news for us at the moment is that we have officially just bought our first home! Very very excited about it 🏡 I cannot wait to get in and get settled and make it our home. Me and Anthony have had some struggles so far because we do have different tastes when it comes to decor, he's very modern and I'm all about the rustic touches I literally want to move to Texas and live on a ranch. I am obsessed with bears and stags so we are constantly trying to meet in the middle! It will be a working progress. We are going for a modern farmhouse look. I will do a blog on my house decor when we are officially moved and settled. My home goals mainly come from one of my heroes Chelsea DeBoer from teen mom 2! She is just incredible 🦌

So that’s life up to now, busy working hard, packing up and getting into our new house over September. I am also very happy it is now officially autumn my favourite time of year 🍂 Halloween will be here soon I cannot wait to fill my new home with pumpkins!! I have a weird obsession with pumpkins! I am obviously glued to Pinterest at the moment for decor ideas. I wish we celebrated ‘fall’ here and Halloween as much as Americans do. I was definitely meant to live in America 🇺🇸 🎃

As much as we are busy during the week I always try and take Ava somewhere on the weekend, mostly to do with animals I want her to be as obsessed with animals as I am and love nature as much as I do 🍁🍂🌻🌿🌲

Love from this Mama Bear 🐻❤️

My baby turned 2 🍁

Last week was a very big week, my little baby turned two years old!! How did that even happen. I still remember the day she was born like it was yesterday, like I always say it’s bitter sweet watching her grow up, I will forever want to rewind and turn her back into my newborn but watching her become this beautiful little toddler is amazing 🐻 

I spent most of last week prepping for her party, Thursday I made a rainbow woodland cake and on the Friday I made woodland style cupcakes with moss and toadstools, so many glittery cookies. Thankfully everything turned out really good and tasty. 

She has so many presents, she’s one very lucky girl 🌻 she had her teepee ⛺️ which she loves, I filled it with pillows and a cosy blanket so she can sit in there and read. She’s had a tinker bell, fairy table and chair set which she loves! So many accecories for her babies, we officially have a doll nursery in our house now! And she had a dolls house that she is obsessed with. Her room looks amazing with all her new toys. She had some beautiful clothes that I can’t wait to get her in to. It was so much fun having everyone here to celebrate for her

We have just about organised the house with all her new toys, we definitely need an extra room for her to have every toy out! I cannot believe my little girl is a toddler already, time goes by in a heartbeat once you have children 👨‍👩‍👧 

On her actual birthday on the Sunday we took her to one of our local farms, she loves being able to feed all the animals once she got comfortable and had a run around. She was very tired from the whole weekend but it was nice to watch her with the animals as that’s one thing I’m obsessed with and hope she grows up to love it just as much 🦌 

All in all it was another successful birthday for my princess 🌻 

Nursery update 🦊

It’s been a few weeks since she first started nursery, in my last post I explained how heart breaking I found the first week of dropping her off. Thankfully I can say it’s gotten easier as I’ve done it more.

She only goes one morning a week so i always knew I was going to take longer to get used to it, she’s only cried once thankfully… I don’t think I could do it if she cried every time. She’s very clingy because it’s very early when I take her so she’s still tired but she’s done so well I am so proud of her. 

I feel for weeks now I have been talking about her birthday preparations, it’s come around so quickly! It’s a week on Saturday I cannot believe it, I feel like I have everything planned I just need a few last minute bits for the baking I’ll be doing. And things like balloons which I’ll get last minute for her. I am so excited to see her face when she sees all her presents and her balloons!! She’s obsessed with balloons 🎈

I still feel guilt from leaving her at nursey, I try and shut it off in my mind because I know she’s having fun, I hope this feeling gets better as time goes on, I know it’s really good for her and will help her socialise with other children her age and hopefully makes some friends! It’s always going to be difficult watching my baby grow ❤️ 

Ava starts nursery 🌿

It’s been a big week for us this week as Ava has had her first induction to nursery, she’s only done 2 taster sessions as of yet and starts her proper morning on Thursday. Honestly it’s been harder on me than her which I didn’t expect. 

I always knew it would be sad leaving her at nursery, but I didn’t really know how hard it would actually hit me. I’m a very strong person, I very rarely cry or get emotional but this by far was the hardest thing I’ve done since having Ava. She hasn’t cried as of yet, but as she’s only done 2, 2 hour sessions I think she is still wondering what’s going on, when she realises she goes to this place and mommy or daddy leaves her I think she will get upset- which I’m terrified about because if I feel this upset when she’s not crying I don’t know how I’ll be able to leave when she’s upset the thought makes me sick to my stomach with nerves 

I am so so happy she’s going to nursery, for the minute it is just one morning a week and within the next few weeks it will be a full day. I wanted her to first be around other children her age, she does have some babies around her from my friends but they are all smaller than her so she definitely needs to socialise more with children her age and I feel it will really help with her development as well. I’m so happy she’s here and I cannot wait for us both to get comfortable with it and it become the normal thing because i know it will be amazing for her. I have enjoyed packing her little bag, we have to provide a rain coat which I obviously bought her a camo one. Ant hates it, thinks it’s too boyish so I sewed on some pink letters spelling her name to make it look more girlie! I also had to provide her with a toothbrush so I of course had to find something cute to put it in, I bought a small clear pencil case and found some woodland animals to decorate it with! Yes I am that mom that has to personalise everything for my baby 🐻🦌 

On the other hand I expect every parent feels his way when they first put their baby in nursery. It’s absolutely heart breaking leaving your baby with people she doesn’t know, I feel guilty, I feel sick to my stomach I just want to take her home as soon as we arrive there. I really pray this feeling fades as I will soon be dropping her and having to do a full days work which will be difficult with this awful anxious, sick, upset feeling I’m getting at the moment! She’s always my little baby girl I am having a really hard time adjusting.

On a happier note I think i am going to enjoy having a few hours to visit friends with their new babies, having some time to do housework without Ava running around or go shopping without having to drag a grumpy toddler around different shops and in and out of the car so I will appreciate it much more! I think it will also make me appreciate her even more as well, being without her for them few hours makes me just miss her so much it’s such a different feeling than when I’m at work and she’s with a family member. 

I guess watching your baby grow up within a split second and having to let go abit so they can grow up will only get more difficult as they get older, I’m definitely just cherishing every single moment with her! Makes me emotional when writing this one, I am genuinely shocked with how hard it’s hit me, she’s only going one day a week I am much more of a wimp than I thought!

I will keep updating my blog on how nursery is going, hopefully the next one will be a much happier feeling one!

Why does my baby have to grow up?